Friday, April 20, 2012

Liberal Soldier: Ex-Exes

I've heard it numerous times. I didn't pay attention. Oh well, I think it was a lesson learned. Here is the short and skinny of it.

Firstly, lemme say, since my last post (like 9mos ago) I've ETS'd out of the Guard. I'm now just a regular dude. Without a doubt that is great. to begin? I'm going to sound idiotic for this no matter how I put it, so I'll just spill the beans. For about 6 mos; from September until about now, I was dating my former ex. Yes, the one that dumped me three days into leave some four years ago.

For whatever reason, she had an epiphany, and came to realize I was the one for her. She loved me. Etc. For whatever reason, I decided to believe her. I really do blame myself entirely for this.

So for about eight months we were talking to one another, and five-six of those months, we were together again. Weekends away. Shopping. New laptop. We even started a business together.

Then, around March, she started to get really sick. Nothing serious, just allergies. So, after the first week of that month, I really didn't see her. Lord knows I tried. I remember going over to her house to pick up inventory (for the business); and she sent her brother out to get it. It kinda pissed me off.

But I had more important things to worry about. I had finals coming up; and I thought we were strong enough to last through a small month of little/no-contact. I've always heard that distance makes the heart grow fonder. I think that only applies if there is actually love involved.

No...instead, things just got worse. To the point that my Birthday was one week-long argument. We ended up going out to eat, no Birthday Sex. To me, that was a big sign something was wrong. I thought that maybe she needed a slight break from me, or something. I wasn't sure what was going on with her. So I broke up with her on Tuesday.

By Wensday I was sad. We had a small fight. I apologized on Thursday morning, and gave her some space. Today, I was checking the Facebook account for the business. I still would retain my 20% equity; though we no longer did photos/photo-shoots together. I think she got pissed off because...I dunno...I suppose I was some kind of golden cash cow for her. I'd go do all this work, she would edit some 100 photos, and we would both get like 25 usd.

It was fine, but I didn't want to do that if we were broken up. It wasn't that I didn't want her to make money or something. I just didn't want to be used in such a manner.

Anyhow, so I get onto the account to check the Facebook for the other aspect of the business. Through this account, I'm still able to look at her Facebook account. Her status message? "I'm so lucky to have him."

WHAT...IN...THE...HOLY...FUCK...??? Roger?

So she has gone through the mourning phase straight into the 'moving on phase'. I expected her to do something like that...literally...less than twenty-four hours...

I honestly don't know if she was cheating on me. I don't think it was physical, but whoever this guy was...she was contacting him I guess through-out April. So...emotional...

I was a bit mad tonight over that. But I've come to realize, once again, I should only be mad at myself. I gave this stupid trashy cheating bitch a second chance. And cheating as an adjective isn't a misnomer or hyperbole. She cheated on me while I was in Iraq. I can assume she was doing the same thing for all of the six months.

I am a verified idiot. Maybe it was Karma.